"Do you ever get the feeling like you already know the entire contents of the universe somewhere inside your head, as if you were born with a complete map of this world already grafted onto the folds of your cerebellum and you are just spending your entire life figuring out how to access this map?"
(Larsen, Page 315 in "The Selected works of T.S. Spivet")
First off Yes I'm still reading this book, call me a slow reader, whatever it's been a great read. I found this particular passage really interesting to consider... I've wrote about "The Secret" in the past, and how I believe sometimes your perceptions create your reality. This to me sounds sort of similar... have you ever had a feeling like you knew the outcome of something, whether it be good or bad? Just sort of knew what might happen? Perhaps in some strange way it's Deja Vu, perhaps we then "will" it to happen like the "Secret" would suggest, or perhaps the answer was there to begin with. I won't write much further on this as I don't want to dilute any opinions you may have on the subject, but I think it's interesting to mull over... be sure to let me know what you come up with :)
So as you might have guessed I have returned to Arizona, where my parents now live. It's really sort of interesting being back here, as it's now a whole new level of familiar. Not only is the area starting to become familiar, but seeing things that was from our house in New Hampshire now in this new place was really strange at first. It was little things that struck me, the small sheep magazine holder Dad always had by his chair, the strange old cabinet we have for our canned goods, and even some of the pictures that now have a new wall to hang out. The funny thing is that these didn't feel misplaced, rather they felt like home and in some strange way just sort of fit in... fit into this new home. It's exciting really.
I've spent most of the week with my Dad, exploring things from Petroglyphs to... well the local Walmart haha. While at times he's certainly on my nerves, it's nice to spend some time with him again, as we typically don't spend much time together. Going back to what I was discussing above, the whole "knowing something before it happens" bit. Well as you may have known I've been in limbo for quite sometime now as to my future, first it was complicated to get the official job offer, and since then I had been waiting on the Canadian government to either approve or deny my visa application. Something deep in my gut told me that things were going to be alright, although after all this time I had begun to get pretty nervous about what the results might be. Well I received a great phone call earlier this week to inform me that my Visa has cleared and that it appears that I'll will be continuing work with Ludia at the beginning of the new year! I'm excited to say the least, I mean for a while now everything in my life has been short term... and to now have a full time job and everything all set... to just perhaps settle in for a while rather than being a nomad. I'm super excited. I'm especially happy to return to work with many of my friends from Mistic and my new friends from Ludia. Not to mention others who I have met in my travels in Montreal. Although with the nice weather in Arizona, I'm not exactly super excited about returning to the Arctic haha needless to say I think it's great. I'm really looking forward to 2010 for some reason... Something in my gut tells me it's going to be good.
One last thing I'd like to mention, if you haven't been following the EMC Blog, the team has been at Saint Lucia to test the first episode of their game. I would be wishing them the best of luck right now, but as they have proven time and time again... Luck has nothing to do with it.
Ironically enough I was a South West flight to Chicago last week (on the way to Arizona) and I just so happen to pick up a copy of the Spirit magazine in front of me. I start to thumb through it, actually just trying to use it to cover the fact that my carry on didn't fit in the seat in front of me, when I stumbled upon this article. Low and behold I'm sitting on a plane reading about the Emergent Media Center, Ann Demarle, and projects that I have worked on in the past. I was beside myself and couldn't help but laugh, and try to explain it to the incredibly uninterested passenger next to me.
To be honest sometimes I wish I had stayed, I miss the EMC and the work I did there. I see others where I was before and I'm jealous, almost like someone else taking your baby away from you. It's all different now, and in many ways I know I don't belong there anymore... but seeing others who have stayed certainly makes me wonder if I should have too. The work they do is... well good for the heart :)
Although part of me knows that it was the right decision to start my own path. To venture out on my own and to open up the next chapter of my life. That's probably the same part that knew my Visa would end up clearing haha.Well it's late and I should really end this long post sooo I will.
G'night anyone who actually takes the time to read this :P
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