It was strange really. For so long this place had been fairly central in my life, a place where you could undoubedly find me every day, and had always been a place filled with familiar faces. In such a short time though, I can't help but feel as though so much has changed. These thoughts ran through my head as I exited the EMC, and headed towards my car. Yet before I could make it there, I was pulled in a different direction. In some strange way I felt compelled to visit the river, so I did. I made my way down to the "Onion River" and found myself soon on it's path once again. I had grown to know this path very well, and it had become a place of refuge for me quite sometime ago. When my head was full, and I needed to figure things out, this is where I used to head. I went to my typical "thinking" spot by the river, and at first this too almost felt unfamiliar. I searched around for any clues, that may ring something deep side. I found that I had been looking in the wrong spot at first, and like a ghost I could suddenly see impression I had made here. I could see myself standing at that very spot, contemplating a great number of things, all of which I'm not prepared to share here. Yet that day was different, my head wasn't full of turmoil. In fact I was at ease, something that I typically didn't bring along with me to this place. I found it ironic that in fact my head was quite clear. I smiled and walked away, without looking back, I left the troubles of the past behind...
It's strange to know in such a short amount of time, I've changed some. I'm not quite the person I was six months ago. For better or for worse, things are different now. Life is constantly changing and sometimes the best we can do is ride the current. Some big changes might be happening in my life soon enough. My best friend from Burlington is moving away, and my parents have both finally found jobs in Arizona and will make their move by the beginning of November. Really I couldn't be happier for them, to have the courage to make a change this big, I really couldn't be more excited for them and their next adventure. Although in some ways I'm seeing what support systems I had for myself seem to be leaving within the next month. With my parents move, there really won't be much for me in New Hampshire anymore. Although there are still people for me in Burlington, it just won't be quite the same without this one. I should be hearing by Monday if Mistic will keep me, and if they don't? To be honest I'm not sure where I'll go. Burlington? New Hampshire to an empty home? Arizona? I can't be sure. Although I'm never quite sure where I'm headed, but sometimes you just have to know that everything will turn up the way it's supposed to, and I'll ride the wave to wherever it takes me.
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