Montreal it is!

Well while nothing is official before I can sign something, it looks as though my stay in Montreal has been extended :)

Details on the job offer will follow in possibly a weeks time...

Feels like it could be the start of something great :)

A new Tipping Point

I found it interesting as I twisted the cable around my hand into a tight little knot. This simple act had been so deeply ingrained into my muscle memory, that it took no thought at all. How many cables had I done the same act to? For a moment I was brought back to Gilford High School, where I worked my summers, even before the kayak shop... Then suddenly I was brought back into the reality that was today. I was packing my desk, for terms that I'm not at liberty to say. I looked down at my phone, reading the text from my Mom to inform me they were now on the road. I peered across the room at Benoit, laughing and saying some goodbyes. So much can change in such a short amount of time, and today I found myself at yet another tipping point in my life. Yet it wasn't just a tipping point for me, but for many and nothing would be the same after today. For better or worse, certain things had been set into motion and now were irreversible.

This road is familiar to me now, while you can never tell where it's going, sometimes you have to have faith that it's leading you in the right direction. Sometimes the bumpiest segments can lead to the best places. The Knees have left Moultonborough, my parents have started their journey west to Arizona, Benoit has finished his internship and starts his studies once more, a friend from Burlington has decided to make a big move, and as for me... well I was really hoping I could be writing some answers down here, but I can't. I still have many unanswered questions, but a hidden trail has opened on my path... and for now I'm hoping to take it a while to see where it goes...

If it's for better or worse, I cannot tell. I can only have faith that things will work out in the end, and hopefully by the end of this day I will know if my future lies in Montreal or elsewhere.In any case, I'll be alright :)

Clear Headed

It was strange really. For so long this place had been fairly central in my life, a place where you could undoubedly find me every day, and had always been a place filled with familiar faces. In such a short time though, I can't help but feel as though so much has changed. These thoughts ran through my head as I exited the EMC, and headed towards my car. Yet before I could make it there, I was pulled in a different direction. In some strange way I felt compelled to visit the river, so I did. I made my way down to the "Onion River" and found myself soon on it's path once again. I had grown to know this path very well, and it had become a place of refuge for me quite sometime ago. When my head was full, and I needed to figure things out, this is where I used to head. I went to my typical "thinking" spot by the river, and at first this too almost felt unfamiliar. I searched around for any clues, that may ring something deep side. I found that I had been looking in the wrong spot at first, and like a ghost I could suddenly see impression I had made here. I could see myself standing at that very spot, contemplating a great number of things, all of which I'm not prepared to share here. Yet that day was different, my head wasn't full of turmoil. In fact I was at ease, something that I typically didn't bring along with me to this place. I found it ironic that in fact my head was quite clear. I smiled and walked away, without looking back, I left the troubles of the past behind...

It's strange to know in such a short amount of time, I've changed some. I'm not quite the person I was six months ago. For better or for worse, things are different now. Life is constantly changing and sometimes the best we can do is ride the current. Some big changes might be happening in my life soon enough. My best friend from Burlington is moving away, and my parents have both finally found jobs in Arizona and will make their move by the beginning of November. Really I couldn't be happier for them, to have the courage to make a change this big, I really couldn't be more excited for them and their next adventure. Although in some ways I'm seeing what support systems I had for myself seem to be leaving within the next month. With my parents move, there really won't be much for me in New Hampshire anymore. Although there are still people for me in Burlington, it just won't be quite the same without this one. I should be hearing by Monday if Mistic will keep me, and if they don't? To be honest I'm not sure where I'll go. Burlington? New Hampshire to an empty home? Arizona? I can't be sure. Although I'm never quite sure where I'm headed, but sometimes you just have to know that everything will turn up the way it's supposed to, and I'll ride the wave to wherever it takes me.

Congrats Mom and Dad! I hope you find what your looking for in opening this next chapter of your life :)

Anticipation

It's the anticipation... approaching a time in your life where you know that decisions are going to be made that will judge how where your life takes you. It's the same feeling you get as you near the end of college, the unseen, as exciting as it can be... at times is unnerving. It's hard to really feel comfortable in a place that might be so temporary. Will I stay, will I go? I'm not sure but will welcome what comes my way. Although I will say that I'm still a bit lonely here, something that I thought would have left me by now. There are certain people I miss a lot, so much so that I'm beginning to wonder if that should weigh into these decisions that have to be made. Yet I have begun to make a place for myself here, I really enjoy work, and I'm getting along well with my "Frenchie." I'm not sure what life will bring me, but I'll play with the cards I've been dealt.